Lead, Serve, Protect, Nurture

2011-06-13T02:55:00.002+08:00

a year now huh since my last post....

just really needed to talk to someone but it seemed so hard.....

i guess pouring here will help feel a lil better

why is it that every year's birthday is so hard to pass

didnt people say that this day should be your happiest day?

but why do i feel so troubled and vexed every such time of the year?

its hard to believe ive spent so many years of my adult life alone on my birthdays

i see friends and couples do the sweetest things for each other on this very special day

and all i got was silence and cold

dont i deserve at least a lil bit better?

dont i?

cant i?

dont say that nothing else in the world matter anymore when you have that special someone in your arms

id love to feel that

especially on this day

Gim kai, happy birthday

you are 23 now

a year older

a year poorer

and a year basked in painess

2010-08-17T13:07:00.002+08:00

this blog ladies abd gentlemen is 6 years in the making, u can possibily imagine from the time i was

16 to today. u can consider it the best time of my lives. i was reading ruby's old blog which i

chanced upon (i didnt go to work because of my sore eyes) her blog dated for 2 years 04 to end of

05 and it interesting to read how was her point of view when the things we go through intersect. i

didnt know i used to be such a superstar in sec sch! haha she called me the event of the year! now

nice!

i miss all the old times, i miss everyone. ruby ya included although u can be so perverted at

times i had to strangle you. now that im in the navy its still worthwhile. just completed NDP

parade as en Ensign (flag bearer). its a wonderful experience! i miss the trainings and the enckis

and of course all those cute helpers and volunteers. ive completed what u call the grandslam of

parades. From CDF change of command to SAF day and then finally NDP 2010.

anyway this entry is dedicated to the past 6 years of my life with this blog. no i wont close this

down, theres so much memories here sometimes reading it feel like making me cry (honestly)

heres something random but i love all my friends!

2010-07-28T00:13:00.001+08:00

Heya anyone missed me???

im a loser at relationshipppp

that true

i suck

how???

helpless

i needa sort out my own life

stop hurting people and myself

2010-04-13T22:39:00.001+08:00

To dream the impossible dream

To fight the unbeatable foe

to bear the unbearable sorrow

To run where the brave dare not go

To right the unrightable wrong

To love pure and chaste from afar

To try when your arms are too weary

To reach the unreachable star.

That is my quest to follow that star

No matter how hopeless

No matter how far

To fight for the right

Without question or pause

To be willing to march into hell for a heavenly cause

And i know if i'll only be true

To this glorious quest

That my heart will lie peaceful and calm

When im laid to my rest

And the world will be better for this

That one man scorned and covered with scars.

2009-11-29T19:06:00.000+08:00

我只想唱这一首老情歌,
让回忆拥满心头.
当时光飞逝,
已不知秋冬,
这是我唯一的线索.
人说情歌总是老的好,
走遍天涯海角忘不了.
我说情人却是老的好,
曾经苍海桑田分不了.
我只想唱这一首老情歌,
愿歌声飞到你左右.
虽然你不能和我长相守,
但求你永远在心中.
我只想唱这一首老情歌,
让往事回汤在四周.
啊,事到如今已无所可求,
这是我仅有的寄托.
人说情歌总是老的好,
走遍天涯海角忘不了.
我说情人却是老的好,
曾经苍海桑田分不了.
人说情歌总是老的好,
走遍天涯海角忘不了.
我说情人却是老的好,
曾经苍海桑田分不了.
我只想唱这一首老情歌,
愿歌声飞到你左右.
虽然你不能和我长相守,
但求你永远在心中.
虽然你不能和我长相守,
但求你永远在心中.

2009-09-20T22:07:00.003+08:00

6 weeks passed out at sea

you know its so interesting

everytime u think you've seen enough of this world

you believed you becom worldly enough

wise enough

street smart enough to handle the world

but its all wrong

going out

6 weeks

you see more things

it makes you feel like the things you know the sight you hear

are so insignificantly little

places continue to amaze me

continue to make friends from all over the world

say

9 months passed in training

most of my batch boys are commissioned already

leaving the few of us with 3 more months to go

in the Advanced Naval Term.

so lets hope this 3 months is a good one

and stop failing ROR tests

next on, you start thinking about the choices you made

if its the right one you know, signing on

untill now i havent received a single positive comment about this decision

although it is quite disheartening to hear them

especially from friends you thought know you very well

they make it sound like a wrong decision

well

i still believed in it

at least i must at least believe in what i decide on

take responsibility for it

I think being a Naval Officer is a respected job

you cannot compare it to the private sector

you cannot say that a Manager is a better job as compare to a Regular Officer

thats what i think

2009-03-20T00:16:00.001+08:00

The most romantic lyrics ive heard to date of my life

here to share

Colin Raye-Love me

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again

I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again

I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

2009-01-25T11:12:00.000+08:00

Since a left hander uses his right brain

while a right hander uses his left brain

the only people in their right minds are leftys!

hail all leftys!

2008-12-19T11:13:00.000+08:00

1.	You are posted to	OCS (ARMY WING).
2.	Your vocation is	OFFICER CADET (CBT).
3.	Your are to report to:	SAFTI Military Institute, Warrior's Hall.
	Reporting Date/Time:	22/12/2008 at 0700 to 0800 hrs.
	Person to report to:	AMPO
	Contact Number:	67997200/342/654
	You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force. Lets hop i dont OOC during the 9 months there

2008-12-06T09:46:00.001+08:00

im like the poorest shit on earth

money

where are you

2008-10-05T14:21:00.001+08:00

why did you appear again and start screwing my life all over again

it hasnt been easy

2008-09-12T21:41:00.002+08:00

Eeeee yaaaaaa ohhhhh yaaaaaa infantry ya!

god knows which company im going to ah!

got no time to say good bye ah!

but got time to finally book in ah!

Eeeee yaaaaaa ohhhhh yaaaaaa infantry ya!

god knows which company im going to ah!

got no time to find girlfriend ah

but got time for gaying in the camp ah!

2008-09-10T00:59:00.001+08:00

Pesta Sukan

once again i fall short of my target for national

the gold eluded me once again

ended up with a useless bronze

going to left right left in a few days time

im kinda excited~

2008-09-02T00:12:00.002+08:00

i am back from AKF

in short for Asian Karate Federation Championship

I suppose i did not too bad

even though i should have gotten a medal back really

heres how it goes

India 0-8 Spore
Saudi Arabia 2-3 Spore

Semi-final
Korea 6-5 Spore

Bronze medal place
Taiwan 8-0 Spore

There u have it, i was trashed by taiwan.

But superb experience, never thought i could beat saudi

Life as it is, too bad im entering the army

no more tourneys for a year

=>

2008-08-23T12:26:00.001+08:00

4 am in the morning, wake awake, somewhere is still hurting

2008-08-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

If only theres a rainbow everyday

2008-08-18T10:33:00.001+08:00

TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North America ..
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America ?
CLASS: Maria.
____________________________________

TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.
__________________________________________
TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?'
GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L'
TEACHER: No, that's wrong
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.
________________________________ ____________
TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O.
__________________________________

TEACHER: Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
WINNIE: Me!
__________________________________________
TEACHER: Glen, why do you always get so dirty?
GLEN: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
_______________________________________

TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.'
MILLIE: I is..
TEACHER: No, Millie..... Always say, 'I am.'
MILLIE: All right..... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'
______________ ___________________
TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?
LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.
______________________________________

TEACHER: Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?
SIMON: No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.
______________________________

TEACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE : No, sir. It's the same dog.
___________________________________
TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher

2008-08-14T00:38:00.003+08:00

Lo

Lo

Lo and behold

ive finally broken my 25min mark on the reservoir

time for today was 24.03min

broke in by a minute!

seems so distant when i was just trying to complete a round

next mark is 23 minute before the army

5 pull ups need to do at least 8 before i go in!

1 more week to AKF

1 more month to Army!

2008-08-07T00:57:00.003+08:00

How god close one door and open another window

Why dream of love?

Is this what eyes were never meant to see

The end of hope and all it meant to me

How can I find the strength to carry on another day

Without my pride, theres nothing left to say

Is this the way my life was meant to be

Too late for me to say that I was wrong

Perhaps the weak believe that they are strong

I thought that if I tried id find a way to earn their trust

Yet all ive known and loved has turned to dust

It seems there was no way I could belong.

The fire that burns within your heart

The pain that tears your life apart

The rain that falls from broken sky

The love I lost beneath the lies

And must I face the truth alone

Is the end of all Ive known

The years I gave the tears I cried

Why dream of love when love has died.

I know one day the story will be told

And in the end the secrets will be sold

And will they look at me and say

I should have known the end

Perhaps I did and why should I pretend

I only dreamt of love and growing old

The fire that burns within your heart

The pain that tears your life apart

The rain that falls from broken sky

The love I lost beneath the lies

And must I face the truth alone

Is the end of all Ive known

The years I gave the tear I cried

Why dream of love when love has died

2008-08-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

http://www.friendster.com/viewalbums.php?uid=3176560

photos from spain

2008-08-05T00:28:00.003+08:00

What is fair in this world?

i wonder?

Issint fairness a judgment of right and wrong?

and the rights and wrongs are a matter of the majority opinion?

So how do we judge fairness?

when judging itself is a matter of opinion

Maybe the only fair thing is chance (extracted from the dark knight, wonderful script writer)

chance is always unbiased

always clear from influence

always.....yes, fair

2008-07-31T13:09:00.003+08:00

and so i am back from spain

the place is onederful

totally

the weather, the girls, the "price"

love it there

ill post more when i have all the photos

meanwhile

here are some knick nacks of spain

1. The day time is about 18 hours, sun rise at 6.30am sets at 10pm
2. Theres no freakin english channel in spain! so i watched apocalypto, reign of fire all in spanish
3. i will never share room with kim song and nick ever again
4. a can of coke can cost 40 euro cent in supermarket while the same thing can cost 2 euro in resutrant
5. beggars look clean and well fed
6. the fences at the train stations are so low, you dont have to pay to get in or out, just climb over
7. when ur train is on the other side, dont bother using the stairs, just run across the track like everyone else
8. The girls there are either too hot or too not, no in betweens
9. zara is dirt cheap there, a top only cost 9 euro (18+ sing), jeans 19euro (38 sing) just like our hang ten
10. Nou camp (barcelona stadium) is actually very small

2008-07-18T03:20:00.001+08:00

Some literary nonsense i wrote from strokes of inspiration, really liked this though

its titled the measure of me

i can even remember who i wrote it for.

but enjoy anyway

copyright:Gim kai

Sunday, March 11, 2007

The following is written in inspiration from a long conversation i had last night. it is written also for this person =>

The Measure of Me

written by: me

How do others measure me?

By the glories of my past?

The actions of my present?

The plans of my unspoken future?

The medals of my game?

The degree of my literature?

The beauty of my wife?

The pedigree of my children?

The granduer of my house?

The trail of dust my car leave behind?

Or is it by the height of my tombstone,

where the metals of my game,
the paper of my literature,
the wrinkles of my wife,
the growth of my children
the rubbles of my house
the scraps of my car

comes in naught.

I will tell you how i measure me.

By the lives ive tried to inspire and change

By the days ive lived in happiness

By every moment i have not crumbbled to pain and death.

Above all

By the knowledge that my heart feels love. as much as pain

By the seconds i stay alive and well

In all the units of measurement of the world

This is how i measure myself

2008-07-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

"How swiftly Caesar had surmounted the icy Alps and in his mind conceived immense upheavals, coming war. When he reached the water of the Little Rubicon, clearly to the leader through the murky night appeared a mighty image of his country in distress, grief in her face, her white hair streaming from her tower-crowned head, with tresses torn and shoulders bare she stood before him, and sighing said:

'Where further do you march? Where do you take my standards, warriors? If lawfully you come, if as citizens, this far only is allowed.'

Then trembling struck the leader's limbs; his hair grew stiff and weakness checked his progress, holding his feet at the river's edge. At last he speaks:

'O Thunderer, surveying great Rome's walls from the Tarpeian Rock --

'O Phrygian house gods of Iulus, clan and mysteries of Quirinus who was carried off to heaven --

'O Jupiter of Latium, seated in lofty Alba and hearths of Vesta --

'O Rome, equal to the highest deity, favor my plans.

Not with impious weapons do I pursue you. Here am I, Caesar, conqueror of land and sea, your own soldier, everywhere, now, too, if I am permitted. The man who makes me your enemy -- it is he who be the guilty one.'

Then he broke the barriers of war and through the swollen river swiftly took his standards. And Caesar crossed the flood and reached the opposite bank. From Hesperia's forbidden fields he took his stand and said:

'Here I abandon peace and desecrated law.

Fortune, it is you I follow.

Farewell to treaties.

From now on war is our judge.'"

Hail, Caesar: We who are about to die salute you.

2008-07-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

Finally after so long of waiitng

i get to really wear national colours and represent Singapore this coming Aug

a pity its just before i enter the army that the dream get fulfilled

World tournament next week already, how time flies

then its Asian karate tournament after i come back

then its "training to be soldier fight for our land!....."

updates updates

my 2.4km time without sprint is 11.17min

just a year ago that time kinda seemed impossible even with a sprint

now its just my normal time

target to break the 11min mark before i go army

chin up still kicking at 3 and thats crap need to do at least 6 before i go in.

i lost weight! haha have to man with the kind of training and frequency

then erm, she got attached already.

what else can i do or say

army is my next stop, rifle my wife haha

courtesy of Ms Xiumin

something she said i always remind myself with.

"Man at your age are at lowest point of your life

you need to go army, a commitment for 2 years

you are broke, no money to even support yourself

you got no job and not enough education.

women on the other hand of the same age

are at their prettiest,

at the right time for a relationship

starting to know many people'

entering the workforce or university."

Bad bad time for a relationship

lowest life form in society

resigned to fate i am, haha...

on the other hand, 5 years down the road the role will be reversed with you earning more money and at your peak of life!

looking forward then =>

2008-06-29T23:30:00.001+08:00

I guess

this is the end then?

2008-06-04T02:17:00.002+08:00

The son who tries the hardest but never gets a nod of approval

Father

Coach

Conductor

Teacher

Couldn't sleep at all

Toss and turn while i reflected on my life

Had a talk with my father yesterday, over my life and of my siblings

future

studies

life

i was reminded of my place among my siblings

makes my father proud because they do well academically wise

me?

i dont have O level results worth qualifying for any JC or GPA above the 3.0 mark

i tried hard to excel in places other then academics.

karate,band,life

The son who tries the hardest but never gets a nod of approval

Coach

I dont excatly excel in pure martial poweress as well

i dont win enough gold medals

dont punch fast enough

but i once again tried to make up through other points like setting up a club, teach and manage the class

not enough to be a favorite

The son who tries the hardest but never gets a nod of approval

Conductor

I was in the band for a good 4 years, long time back

it was years of revolution to make it to the top then

Drum major i was

but the favours went to another man

The son who tries the hardest but never gets a nod of approval

My life have always been trying to make up for the deficits

through so many means

i did my best

yet among everyone in parts of my life

i was

The son who tries the hardest but never gets a nod of approval

2008-04-29T02:36:00.000+08:00

Gloria Estafan --- Reach. A tribute to Springfield SYF 08

Some dreams live on in time forever
Those dreams, you want with all your heart
And Ill do whatever it takes
Follow through with the promise I made
Put it all on the line
What I hoped for at last would be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
Im gonna be stronger
Know that Ive tried my very best
Id put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

Some days are meant to be remembered
Those days we rise above the stars
So Ill go the distance this time
Seeing more the higher I climb
That the more I believe
All the more that this dream will be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
Im gonna be stronger
Know that Ive tried my very best
Id put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
Im goona be stronger
From that one moment in my life
Im gonna be so much stronger yes I am
Know that Ive tried my very best
Id put my spirit to the test
If I could reach higher
If I could, if I could
If I could reach
Reach, Id reach, Id reach
Id reach Id reach so much higher
Be stronger

2008-04-21T22:03:00.002+08:00

Update update

hmmmm lets start with SYF 08

we got a bronze,

but im not too bothered about it.

i thought i would be

but after seeing the spirit undying even after the competition

i know

ive managed to achieve what i came for

it just felt like we won even though we really lost =>

for now, the future seems bleak and filled up uncertainties.

who knows what is going to happen including me.

i always thought band should be fun

just like the way i used to remember it back in my maha bodhi band days

that day, we sure had one hell of a time.

SYF 2010 (if we are going)

Kick ass, rock on

ok then now on with life,

it seems my peers are receiving their prophecy of freedom from their mailbox

dont understand ah

NS enlistment letter lar

i havent got mine

though i always wanted to go in early and stop wasting my life away

looks like i need to find a job to myself

Crew job at neBo sounds good

so anyone out there with a lobang

do take care of xiao di over here

2008-02-27T20:53:00.001+08:00

Teluk Danga Bay Games

Karate

Hayashi-Ha: 0 medal

Gim Kai: Fractured Nose

Outcome: Sian

2008-02-18T01:03:00.000+08:00

His email:

Hi Gim Kai,

It really wonderful to see how you are helping with the Springfield band. Your words to the so called "Ping Yi" alumni and me today has really been a great insight and Inspiration to me. Never mind, the friendship that we have forge as the titans. Never mind the lesson you have learn as students leaders with edwin and us. I'm sure those do not amount to anything now? There was not even a greeting of such as friends but more of a accusation of us as "supervisors".

Thank you very much for your kind words and wisdom, for through all your words and action, i have really seen why the band is as such. Because, past values, past friendship and past achievement as ONE TITANS, has long been forgotten, and not valued. Exactly as what the school is thinking, congratulations for upholding the springfield value of not caring about it's history and be a selfish group of people, who do not care about it's roots and history.

What's more hurting that it has to come from you, a person who i see is most mature to handle this type of situation. You have come to forgotten how much ping yi has helped grown springfield band. And how much, no matter separated we are, we still come from the same values and sources. The Titans.

To see you, a person whom i respect so much, forget the values that have made the band where they are today has definitely been really hurting. I have tried so much to not seperated the Alumni, to continue on as TITANS ALUMNI BAND, but unfortunately you do not think the same way. I have no qualms about your so called "Springfield" alumni coming to ping yi. I have even invited them. But, well, you mind that we have and therefore have effectively uphold the "narrow minded" view of the school's management. Kudos to you!

Since, my so called "Ping Yi" alumni are not welcome, we will not force ourselves on your team. It just sad to note that these so called "ping yi" alumni today consists of so many springfielders, and in it, there is even syafiq, who have braved much with you. not to forget Edwin, who was once your brother and fellow general, leading the band for "war" together, All the past means nothing to you where there is not even an aknowledgement that he is there.

Those "Ping Yi" alumni have even asked me when i told them to come with me, HOW CAN THEY HELP? They were doubtful about coming and whether they can contribute. And even before they can try to contribute. You have shoot them down. For me, it's nothing, it's my responsiblity to come, but for them......... it's because MY alumni know that springfield is after part of our roots, part of the once titans that we have come to learn so much from that they come.

Thank you for showing me that i was wrong. I totally apologised for trying to even convince "Ping Yi" alumni to even come for springfield practice. It was me that told them to come and it is no fault of theirs. For that, i apologise to you. I'm sorry for making an error in judgment that you were different from what the school is. I'm really sorry, please do not put the blame on them, they are after all just showing their "TITANS SPIRIT". If there is any fault, it's all mine.

I think you have effectively shown me the direction to go. The band has lost the basic character of the titans. And as much as you tell me how much you want to bring it back. Today, i see a different you. A you that seperate the Springfield from the Ping Yi, a you that forgets how much both the bands has been through over the years to stand where we are today. A you have have forgotten how much of my life i have put into Springfield. A you that have forgotten for what i have always stand for and the values that i have always wanted to uphold. The very basic foundation of the band. A you that have forgotten how much faith and trust i have put in you.

I know i can be wrong. For that, I'm Sorry. Do not have undue worry about the future, for you will not see me and my "Ping Yi" alumni ever in Springfield to see the band again. It's always my philosophy, why force our self on others when we are not welcome or even appreciated

All the best to you with YOUR Springfield Band. A band that is part of my life but has been destroyed by narrow mindedness from the school managment and now from my very own student. A band that i have put half my life in. you will and can never understand what Springfield Band means to me.

Once again, sorry for the inconvenience and unhappiness that i have caused today. Rest Assured! NONE of my "Ping Yi " alumni will ever set foot into Springfield Band EVER AGAIN!

WARMEST WISHES AND BEST REGARDS

Your humble servent
KENRICK
Band Director
TITANS MARCHING BAND

My reply

ell me something really.

you words give me big insights too

unlike your sarcastic email and your selective choice of words

i will speak to you in truth and infront

do not talk to me about titans values when you preach it and not do it

you do not even respect the current conductor Mr. tong and acknowledge him infront of the members.

i came back for the love of this band. what did you come back for at this point of time? 1.5 months from competition?

tell me honestly, and deep down in your heart. did the crew came back with the pure intention and the utmost pure intention of helping. you and i only know the answer too well.

it is precisely because i do not forget any lessons and experiences that im doing what i am doing today.

at least i dare to stand up for truly what i believe in and defend my belief.

i wish to remind you. i am not anywhere beneath you for i have proven my mettle in any organization i have led since i left the band.

in truth and in honesty. i do respect you. the values and beliefs you once taught.

but the day you tell me to let the band die.

i have understood you are not the man you once were.

because a true educationist do not speak without regards for students.

what characters and values you speak of when you want the band to die.

what of the current members of the band? let them die?

and then suddenly you want the band to get sliver because you are so afraid that the school will terminate bandworld?

what is the difference between you and Mr Ong? an educationist and a businessman?

tell me this is leadership i tell you its bullshit.

i know leadership and leadership tells me to not give up no matter what.

you tell me you and the crew came back because the principal believed in your crew's ability to deliver.

tell me where was the help when i needed it and pleaded with you for it?

and you asked me to convince them myself?

today 2.5 months later, you dare to come and tell me that they want to help.

so what if they are to help? have you no respect for your fellow colleague Mr. Tong?

where are your plans for him? conveniently put him one side?

have you ever sat down with him and talked to him about your concerns

do not tell you me he do not understand or he insist his own ways

because i have told him and he have accepted my suggestions.

yes the band's dressing is very 'straight', they are very 'smart' their music is 'fantastic' as mentioned by your crew.

i laugh at this statements and wondered is this the titans values you preach

i am 20 this year and have achieved much more in life then you have ever imagined. of course i contribute that to your guidance sincerely

i have done you and your teachings proud by excelling and rising to the top of the echelon of any organizations i am in

i will continue to do so

even if it means going against you

Gim kai,
Elected student leader (TP Sports club) AY07/08
Captain ,Karate
Trainer, Sports Leaders Training
Asst, Instructor, Hayashi-Ha shitoryu karate
Drum Major 2004

2008-02-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

a posted this 3 years ago

now i post this again, i really like this poem

Solitude

Laugh, and the world laughs with you
weep, and you weep alone
For the sad old earth
must borrow its mirith

Sing, and the hills will answer
sign.it is lost on the air
The echoes bound to a joyful sound
But shrink from the voicing care

Rejoice, and men will seek you
grieve, and they turn and go
They want full measure of all your pleasure
But they do not need your woe.

Be glad, and your friends are many
Be sad, and you lose them all
There are none to delicne your nectared wine
But alone you must drink life's gall

Feast, and your halls are crowded
Fast, and the world goes by
Succeed and give, and it helps to live
But no man help you die.

For there is room in the halls of pleasure
For a large and lordly train,
But one by one we must file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

Solitude.

2008-02-10T02:52:00.001+08:00

one of my fav songs of all time

brings backs memories

haha

郭富城-对你爱不完

灯初上未央来往的人多匆忙
我不要太紧张和别人一模样
但是你对我望两只眼睛大又亮
我开始失去了主张

风吹得路好长一颗心晃呀晃
多想找人陪我逛累了睡在马路上
表面上很倔强其实内心一团糟
怕自己爱像太阳

胸中藏著一把火这种日子不好过
把承诺交给你把微笑当作信
却怎么也抓不住你

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

music...

灯初上未央来往的人多匆忙
我不要太紧张和别人一模样
但是你对我望两只眼睛大又亮
我开始失去了主张

风吹得路好长一颗心晃呀晃
多想找人陪我逛累了睡在马路上
表面上很倔强其实内心一团糟
怕自己爱像太阳

胸中藏著一把火这种日子不好过
把承诺交给你把微笑当作信
却怎么也抓不住你

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

2008-01-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

2 projects down

left IMC/Global

time really flies

what a love hate relationship people have with then school and projects

at the sunset of my education here in TP

u wish things wont go so fast

when u are in the midst of hell and severe lack of sleep

you wish you get it done and over with

2008-01-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

Comissioning parade

i didnt know it still can sting that much

2007-12-28T01:40:00.000+08:00

Damm you

because i refuse to back down

and i will not

for the ones who come dilligently for band every practice

for the soul of leaders who are willing and passionate like Yan Jun and Jun An

i will not back down

April...we shall see

2007-12-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

Springfield 5th ROD just over on saturday

initially hoped to rally springfield seniors to the cause

but when i wanted to open my mouth

i realised they are not the people i want to talk to

it may sound all the way seems wrong

but.

i do not feel burning passion

nor fighting spirit

nor the will to help the band do well.

I felt none of those

No encouraging words could come from my mouth

No blood rushing to my heart and soul

None.

From this 40 odd seniors present.

I felt none.

But except for the some.

The particular some

i find them at my side in anticipation for this battle.

One of our darkest hour.

It was at the dinner table i see maybe not defying passion

but undying will.

Will that needs someone to pull them through.

At this table i saw Mingzhen, Jack, Geraldine, Esther, Joseph, Wei Siang, Jasper.

Leaders of the "Old Guards" i might call

In them i can feel my blood flow into my heart and soul

To let loose inspiration and determination.

Yes its a war on many fronts

Teachers (the 3 bitches i heard)

Members, their attitude

Leaders, training them to be worthy of Lead, Serve, Protect, Nurture

Possible internal strife of seniors

But hey,

i say we will defend our fronts and win the war.

For today, i am not alone anymore

There is no road for us to take now

We will carve our own road.

We will succeed

No.....

WE MUST SUCCEED!

2007-12-03T01:05:00.000+08:00

Lead. Serve. Protect. Nurture

To Lead
To bring people where they ought to be, but not necessary where they want to be

To Serve
To put in whole-heartedness, group before self

To Protect
First to defend the group regardless right or wrong, no matter the status. In any situation no matter how desperate the situations.

To Nurture
Grow and develop new leaders to ensure continuity if not growth.

The creed of leadership..... My creed of leadership

Developed over the years through all my experiences.

In any organization ive led in, i have always followed this creed. This belief. Band, Karate and other passing projects.

Springfield and Ping Yi is effectively separated.

Many Springfield Seniors have decided to help ping yi for the coming SYF.

I dont blame them. If its where their hearts lies. They arent making any morally wrong decision. Theres nothing wrong. Ping yi is more supportive of the alumni movement. Be it time, money, effort, support. Ping yi have been giving the members, seniors tremendous amount of support. Formation wise, music wise, it is also more relevant because its still british style. All seniors know how to help. More importantly, our mentor is there. The man who taught all of us everything we know.

On the other hand. Spingfield have been doing all the opposite. The members themselves dont give a hoot nor respect the seniors anymore. All traditions and values have been lost. The marching styles was changed to American. Members dont care for the band. No Passion except a handful.

But To Protect

I have chosen my own school Springfield.

I just feel sad no one else shares the same sentiments as me.

No matter how much the members disrespect me

No matter how low the state of the band is today

It will always be my place of initiation as a leader

I will do my best to help them

In the end of the day even if they do not hit their target

I must impart in them that they know they did their best. I did my best

Character not results that matters

There will be no regrets.

To Protect.

2007-11-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

oh yea

alas

attachment is ending~

haha

foodfare over not too long ago

my voice is still down

too much shouting already

then got to know a few promoters too

oh my god i feel so damm old

all 15-16 years old xiao mei mei

Ok

the club finally has gotten into place

now to see how my planned systems work

but i must remind myself

no matter how fantastic a system is

it will only work when there are willing and passionate people.

So far so good

looks like all these years in band

im finally doing good in other places of my lives

shows that training then can be applied anywhere

i hope to pass down what i could not in band

The Strength to command respect

The Knowledge to Lead

The Courage to protect

I shall see my system unfold itself in the weeks, months to come

Im full of hope

2007-11-11T01:04:00.000+08:00

Here i am again

going to bitch about my life haha.

i do wonder

is it life that is hard by itself

or am i making my own life hard to pass

oh well.

training aint what it used to be

maybe i should be more selfish

its not that i dont want to teach

but it just seems nobody appreciates at all

at the expense of my own skills

i want to train

i want to be good

i want to improve

but i find it so hard

trainings are also devoted to helping and teaching

but i want to train

passing down at tp karate soon

i hope they will never forget that we still have a mission at hand

continue to strengthen ourselves

increase our intake

improve our skills

ultimately win the medals

its still a worry....

SIP is ending soon

end of this month

seems quick at times

simply slow and excruciating at times too

but its ending.

haha

i guess its one of those low times of life

i need a hug!!!!!

A walk in the snow

footprints covered

2007-10-15T00:58:00.000+08:00

erm....

too long never update

i see so much rust and cobwebs around this blog of mine

what can i say,

a lacklustre performance for pesta sukan tournement awhile back

one mentally and physically demanding SIP

one super irritating and lazy intern at the work place

Sports Club and Karate camp so much problems

work tommorow again....

retraining should start soon for me

haha

getting weaker by the moments

2007-08-01T09:37:00.000+08:00

first time in my life im blogging morning 9.30am!

haha

got nothing to do yet.

anyhow

yay!

xiaoshi lent me her mambo jamobo CD to rip!

i always liked oldies.

yay! x2

all projects are submitted

now left with just 1 presentation

the new intake will be coming later

haha

and im kinad dissapointed with huasheng

i want to believe he can step up to the job

but its kinda hard to believe

im worried after yijia and gang leave

no strong ones to take over

and we are still at our first year!

my god

2007-07-28T22:45:00.000+08:00

TP results for today

3 gold

3 sliver

4 bronze

i got 1 gold 1 bronze for myself.

hmmmm i didnt thought i performed well today

Started off right

ended off crap

looks like i have to stop relying on my trusty middle punch

and start training the useless legs of mine

match score as follows

1--6-4

2--6-2

3--2-1

4--lost 5-3

haha

so much for dreaming to be good in this field

2007-07-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

Life in one circle

That means that theres a begining

and yea

theres the end.

when you reach the end, you start a new begining

thats a circle no?

but what happens if you didnt end before you start a new begining?

paradoxical

haha i also dunno what the hell im talking about

sat is the tournement

karate recruitment was just over

maybe i should adopt a even softer stance

if it was the band, i would have machine gunned them

so much mixed feelings

dont know how to say

2007-07-13T21:13:00.001+08:00

cronic exhuastion

lack of potassium

low blood pressure

these are symtoms i always thought that belonged to sick people

never me.

looks like im wrong

apparently i suffered from exhuastion after running 3km on sunday

blacked out

went in for a drip over night

blood test

results will be out next week

2007-06-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

So ive decided to take up the president post in Titans Alumni

the place where i grew, learnt and become who i am.

i guess

my life has finally come in one full circle

im back where i once started

facing the same problems that were once a upon a time

so not winning the sports club election was a blessing in disguise

if not

i wont even know how to handle

i want to be .........

i want to make my life.........

i want to achieve..........

i hope...........

2007-06-13T23:34:00.000+08:00

Im very happy today

just yesterday i was complaining that my life is squeezed into this week

and then today

on my birthday,

my whole life celebrated it for me.

had 4 cakes~

lots of presents which i always wanted

thanks, elizabeth, xiao shi, mei qin and jorine for the 1st suprise of the day in the lab

thanks, kai wen, andrew, samantha, hong tuan, melvin for the next one and the meal

thanks, yijia, nick, ying pei and the rest of the karate team for the wonderful belt and the 2 lovely cakes.

thanks everyone

it is the happiest birthday of my life

2007-06-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

i am so angry at myself

how could i have lost 7-0

i thought that was left in the freakin past

i freakin screwed the selection up.

though i won the 2nd match 4-1

it was not enough to bury my anger.

i freakin no stamina

no good techique to show

maybe im just not good enough for karate.

ever searching for what i can do well

ever searching.

how do i beat terrence

seems that ppl with the name terrence always wins me

darn it

give me the strength so that i can win

the courage so that i can attack

the knowledge so that i can defend

2007-05-31T21:12:00.000+08:00

hehe

long time no blog

well,

i did a mascot job during the food expo

got abused

touched

hugged

had fun with kids

but it was hot and heavy

a kangaroo costume.

hehe

took a pic with a pretty girl~.

i didnt make the team this time

oh well.

work harder ya

plagued by multiple injuries that wont heal

crap.

Ran for sports club

173 votes

guess im aint that popular huh~

so much to do

which i havent get down to yet.

ah crap

haha

2007-05-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

Stupid Blogger.

i see nuts.

Anyway, 1 gold 1 bronze for IVP

Aint that happy.

I should have gotten the kata bronze too.

Dammit

Stupid Knee.

National Trial today.

I dunno how i did.

But i do hope to make the damm team.

**fingers Crossed.

Very Suay-ly

I injured my knee on friday.

So i didnt fight my best for sat and sun

but still,

being injured opened a new kind of fighting for me.

Forced to wait and react

not my thing

but its good tecnique.

2007-04-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

well,

CCA recruitment just ended.

A nightmare for me

so im glad its ok.

Not easy handling the entire sports section

plus your own karate side.

Also have to listen to people "sing" in your ear.

Not happy at all.

I sometimes wonder why am i doing all these.

At times like this,

it would be nice to have some love around.

haha.

On the up side,

i got to know the captains better.

Surely make my work easier in the future.

Choosing the next captain.

Should i hold on or should i pass on.

One step at a time

One girl at a glance

Determine my future

2007-04-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

Another sprint of inspiration from some thoughts~

<100>

would you wipe my mouth when i eat,

and hold me in your arms like im a kid?

Are you willing to do all these,

one hundred years from now?

Could you lend me your shoulder,

when i cry or when i sleep,

even when im just feeling lazy.

do all these for me ya?

one hundred years from now.

And Just like in a fairytale,

can you sit with me to watch the sunset,

Ill hold your hand in the waltz of our life,

dancing away forever......

even one hundred years from now

forever and ever

one hundred years from now..........

Gim kai
2304Hrs

2007-04-15T01:31:00.000+08:00

And so Sports Leadership Training Camp 2007 have come into pass,

id say this is one of the more interesting camps ive been to.

not programme wise, but the nature of the camp itself.

i thought it would be nice to be a participant of the camp first before becoming the leader,

but looks like i took a jump forward.

nonetheless,

its interesting to see a camp of would be leaders.

observing it makes me realise the saying,

"some people are born great, while some have greatness trust upon them".

Ill be looking forward to next years SLTC.

Oh,

i saw this girl in camp

too bad didnt have the chance to talk to her.

got me tickley inside.

oh well,

such is fate

2007-04-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

wow

for the first time on saturday

i tried ice skating

kinda liked it

kinda interested in learning roller blading because of that

thought it would be a good skill to pick up.

Saturday was fun

first outing of us hayashi karate

(exculding the old people) haha *nervous laugh

we should do it often

its good for the team

and we can form the hayashi skating team!!!!!!

upper upper on the ice~

2007-04-05T03:02:00.000+08:00

100th post

The Centineial Post

After 3 years of blogging i hit the big 100.

A post worthy of reflection

what ive been doing with my life these years

What do i want to do with my life from now.

yes......

what do i want to do from now.......

Captain, Temasek Karate

Prompted to run for president of Sports Club next yr

score better for my results......

improve my skills as a fighter....

Do i need all these

i ask myself.

If you ask me,

im least interesred to run for president

continue my captaincy.

But before i leave TP

i would want to see my dream fullfilled.

So yes i would run for president

continue my captaincy

and execute them with vigour.

I just hope

my dream will reach out to many others

who will in turn share these dream with others.

Its not a sport

Not a hobby

Its what i do.

2007-03-31T02:10:00.000+08:00

"Fly away" by Corrine May

i Like this song

very meaningful lyrics.

"When will you be home?" she asksas we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleedsand yet she says to me
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flightI held her as I cried
You can fly so highKeep your gaze upon the skyI'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apartI
love you too much to make you stayBaby fly away
ohh...I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

2007-03-25T00:18:00.000+08:00

today something extraordinary happened......

words cannot describe how i feel......

it was a heart stopping moment........

it was.......

love at first sight....!

my goodness.....

i saw my dream..........

dream..........

dream.........

BAG!!!!!

haha.

yea that was nonsense of what i just said.

but i did saw a bag i really like.

not too small,

not too big,

alot of compartments just the way i like it

durable

comfy

and its the camel brand, real stuff.

for those who dont know,

camel produce hard stuff.

i wld like to take photo and poste it here

but my laziness forbids me so

haha

i got my adidas full training/overseas bag

i got me school/training bag

now im gonna get me a pure school bag from carrefour i saw today

haha

IF

i got money

2007-03-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

sian

it seems life is kinda weird now

when you are young, studies takes center stage

now in poly,

i cant even get to do the things i want during my holidays?

2007-03-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

this sucks,

down by so many irritating aliments

and overseas training is coming friday

i want to get well soon!!!

damm.

a hardened image

but surprised by the warm and soft hands.

My heart skipped a beat

2007-03-11T01:05:00.000+08:00

2007-03-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

i got me a electric mosqito squatter

die you blardy mosqitoes

die

die

die.

damm, i read about 1/3 of the book in 2 days

amazing, but true.

it might seem little to story fanatics out there

but hey

its gim kai we are talking about here

he dont blardy read.

i just found out 5mins ago

you cant keep good chocolate in your mouth,

you are suppose to bite em

thats when it taste nice.

lol.

at least thats what i think,

do correct me if im wrong

2007-03-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

i did something unbelivable today

i actually went to kino

and bought 2 books worth 40 over bucks

haha

i dont freakin read

but i bought books

one is a spartan story

something got to do with upcoming movie "300"

i such a sucker for war stories.

another is a collection of piano scores

lots of nice oldies to play

im gonna memorise "moon river"

hehe

2007-03-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

Grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change.

The courage to change the things i can

and the wisdom to differentiate both.

2007-03-03T01:49:00.000+08:00

Wake up you bloody fool......

wake your bloody idea up........

2007-02-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

2007-02-25T00:22:00.000+08:00

inspiried by the mini-series (Band of Brothers)
"We Stand Alone Together"

Other then achieving victories,

the most memorable moments of my leadership life in band was rallying the people,

rallying to encourage them

rallying to face adversity.

That moment where your voice ring out on the field,

where your men stand at attention

where you feel the air around you literally change

Where at that moment many hearts unify to beat as one.

When you feel that,

you know

your voice have brought the diversity of many to become one.

you know

all of us are finally one.

"From this day

to the ending of the world.

We in it shall be remembered.

We the lucky few

We Band Of Brothers.

For he who today sheds his blood with me,

shall be my brother."

2007-02-24T02:23:00.000+08:00

so proud of myself

managed to revamp my blog

yay

haha

is cheering someone up a skill?

can anybody teach me?

so i be the best friends of everyone

haha

greedy arent i

but who in the world will curse themselves for having too many good friends

i enjoy meeting new people

dunno why~

but its always fun yes?

something random

i like listening to oldies

but dont call me old

or ill dug ur eyes out with a rusty spoon.

are my emotional injuries self infflicted?

i somehow think so

haha

live fast

stay strong

die easy

2007-02-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

cant believe it

2 days ago i was at a friends house playing "21 points"

3 times i got double aces, which meant triple pay!

but each time the banker got 15 points, which gives the banker the right to void the game and restart!

sian...

haha again, its just a game really

on another note

my life has transisited about 90% different since 2004

friends,

life,

activities,

many more,

it aint a bad thing after all

i did want t new life when i started poly

i guess i somewhat almost did it.

the remanants of my old life comes in the shape of people

people you want to forget but just cant bear to.

darn it

haha

on another note

im just so proud of myself for sewing back my own karate gloves

it doesnt look all that nice

but its decent enough

should have let yingpei sew it for me

hear that yingpei!!!

next time ask you to sew for me

haha

chinese new year is getting boring by the year

even the food!

luckily the ang bao izzint

if not ill stop visiting all together

dont run away if you got married

cause ill be knocking on your door to ask for ang bao!

wish me luck

i bought 4D for this saturday

forget the past,

live the present,

take on the future,

2007-02-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

with her in my arms, i feel age is catching up on my short 19 years of my life

shes my grand niece

did i say GRAND niece?

yea i meant GRAND niece.

haha

my oh my

life is flashing back to me, i was like her once

how im this big

how time flies!

2007-02-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

Pain is in the air

oh~

pain is in the air

haha

i say tt cause im experiencing some pain

when i run recently

i experience sharp pain on my right shin

sharp pain,

its real sharp pain

damm azure for sweeping me during training last wedsday

haha

on a lighter note

i have cookies and brownies courtesy of yingpei and yijia

i so love sweets and confectionary

specially if its handmade

i just have a thing for handmade food

oh

the bronwnies are nice

and the cookies are nicer haha

2007-02-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

oh my god

a week of illness has reduced my stamina to crap and shit

was huffing and puffing at training at ngee ann yesterday

went for a run today, the first 3 click was still the same

but thats about it, i was wheezing after that

usually i can go for about 5 click before i run out of gas

darn

need to retrain again

sianzz

oh the other hand

travelling wasnt that bored with the girls accompanying me

the long trip can get really sian

2007-02-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

i swear to god

this year hasnt been a good year really

so much confilct with so much people

i always thought its them

maybe its me whos the problem??

god knows

i also do not know why im so concered about others blabbering

i used to throw shit back with no remorse when people throw shit at me

but know i feel like a whimpering monkey whos scared of this and that

damm......

signs of growing up?

or just a case of shrinking guts.

anyway

went to malaysia for karate demostration today

a short trip into JB

fun nonetheless

was talking to some girls at my table during the banquet (they treated us to a banquet!)

haha and it was a good talk

lots of laughing and jabbering. HOWEVER,

worse of all, i forgot to take pictures with em!!!

how bad can the year get!?

@%$^$$#%

oh well

good experience.

2007-01-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

despite the hectic schedule

and super busy projects,

and presentations,

TP karate finally started

it aint that easy

but it started

finally, after 2 years of pushing

now to form a committee and make things happen

TP will be the no. karate institue in singapore!!!

2007-01-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

what a way to start 2007

got shot up quite badly by a friend for caring too much

haha

and then i got shot up again at night by someone else over matters i not discuss here

that leaves a badly shot up me

thats like a equal of 2 heavy machine guns unloading on me

haha

cant ask for a better new year day can i?

2006-12-25T15:29:00.000+08:00

80th post-:

"Hell haveth no fury like a woman's Scorn"

Jill, Project group mate and friend

i finally have a taste a that.

And i dont like it.

Say all you want on your blog

Tell what you want to everyone

My concieous is clear

I did what i know is right

But ill caution you

Dont go overboard with what you asy

You tread on a thin line between insulting or just a harmless expression of views

Dont push your luck

Me keeping quiet dont mean i accept what you say

Im just trying avoid trouble

.......

Unlike you.

2006-12-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

feel so broken today

i guess today is the day where ive reach a certain treshold

2 years of tension

all out today

broken

so broken

2006-12-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

cant help but feel a tinge of sadness as the year end draw near every moment.

was reading my brudder xq blog just, on his "farewell" entry before he went in

haha, cant believe it lar, just last year new year

i was at his place playing call of duty 3 to day break

now both jy and xq is in the army.

feel so alone. doesnt help when im listening to slow sad music now(conicidence)

oh

i was running today when it rained on me, was at my 3 round, gonna complete 6km

dang,

didnt finsh the last round

dang.

christmas is coming, new year is coming

dont know how to spend these occassions this year

every year i got places to go, people to be with

this year is just desolate

haha

will you be my friend?

2006-12-17T14:59:00.000+08:00

Lo and behold, im finally updating!!! haha

oh well, the year is finally ending, lar

the year has been good to me, achievements and all

first time go clubbing in singapore, went to DXO

hoping to see some chicks, saw some, just some

the alcohol there is crap, so watery

prefer the good old beer

and theres a tally of 2 slivers and 3 bronze for karate this year

inclusive is 2 regional medal, trying for the nationals.

hope to go SEA games next year.

and also get my driving liciense soon, i should stop procasicinating.

of course, i should try to update more often

2 of my bruuders are already going or is in the army, my turn soon.

oh yea, i should make it a point to dress better now,

tio suan by alot of ppl on the way i dress. Tsk!

Thanks jieyuan, Xiao quan, shirleen the whale, Marina, Vanessa, Maha bohdi recording Alumni, Sensei Mike, Springfield-Pingyi Band, titans alumni, seniors and juniors of Hayashi-Ha karate and people who i forgot to mentioned for making my 2006 a good year!!!!!

2006-11-11T01:11:00.000+08:00

long time no post, events still happening, just over was the sports club camp lar. make you realise how bitchy a person can get to save her own hide lar. you though you know her after a few years in the same school but she still surprise you with unlimited 2 faced action and superb back-stabbing skills. not to forget lie-in-your face secret technique and lastly how can we forget the save-my-own-skin combo. put it all together you get a b.i.t.c.h yay

2006-10-08T02:40:00.000+08:00

you know.....
whats really relaxing?.....

a cup of warm drink
a nice shower
the right temperature
nice music

never felth any better =>

2006-10-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

long time no post. haha, anyway, i had a talk with my father just now, my grandma was comlaining about my sister which i totally agree about. i wont say what she did here cause its just not right lar.But instead i would wanna say what my father said. after lecturing my sister, he said that people in singapore is changing rapidly. we are becoming more and more like the western world. our culture and values are slowly being diluted in the sea of fast food and western believes. i do agree to it. he says that in the future, family relationships wil llast only 2 generations. the child and the parents, there wont be such thing call grandparents simply because they believe its their parents responsibility not theirs. im a stauch supporter of traditional confucious teachings on family values and i dont wish for that to happen. its like a cousin of mine, my uncle paid so much for him to go overseas to study but he then decide to migrate there and not come back anymore. How heart breaking it can be for my uncle. you bring him up, you support him, you put your entire CPF for him to study and he one day says oh ive found a life there, im not coming back. i feel sad for my uncle. i swear i will never treat my parents this way and ill make it a point to educate my child about real chinese values. just like how my father has taught me

2006-09-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

alrite!!! heres my entry. started work in suntec for the IMF event. for 2 weeks i didnt have anything to do at all, everyday, play cards, majong, yes majong. ( my collegue brought his mini majong set to work) but well enough fun, work is starting tommorow (monday) formal and all. => my life? jsur came back from a karate tournement and got humilated by the damm taiwan national team......sian.....lost 8-0. my worst fight in my life. i couldnt even touch him man. sian........damm those taiwanese, no wonder china wanna wack them...haha just joking lar no offence to anyone. just me grumbbling. but i must admit they are good. they swept away most of the gold medals. never mind, will work hard now!!!!! i always tell my juniors i waited and lost 5 tournements before winning my first medal. haha dont want to stay dry for another 5 tournements again. that will be so sian man. anyway, i was hoping for buying a PSP on yahoo auction courtesy of vanessa. so anyone with a PSP to boot, drop me a tag!!! will blog again soon anyway

2006-08-21T15:13:00.000+08:00

ok, this blog somehow became a monthly update thingy where so many people update almost every other day. i used to tell myself i didnt have the time to update but now i guess its just plain lazy lazy.*shugs. haha, xq was complaining im not updating my blog enough lar. ppl like him can update almost everyday. dont know how he do it. i was never keen about setting up a blog in te first place lar but i remember it was the year 2004, someone ask me to blog so i can keep people updated and let ppl know how i feel of certain issues in school so i happily started one. sidetrack a little, these few days was quite irritating. some stupid fighter jets and chinhooks and helicopters keep zooming pass my house. very very very irritating lar. 5 just flew past just now and is stil lflying pass -_-....... ah erm.....

was reading mh blog just now. was reading her past entries....hmmmm i should just conclude that curosity kills the cat lar, haha. anyway vanessa birthday is coming in a few days time. should think about getting her something....hmmmmm

2006-07-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

wah its been so long since the sailing trip and i wanted to update this blog but unfortunately, i just cant find the discipline to do so. subsequently, more and more and events and things pile up, followed by projects, projects and more projects. terefore, no more update on sailing trip. haha. Projects been hell, finally get abit of time after 2 project submission today *thank god. 2 more project submission on friday fortunately, marketing priciples is 90% done and consumer behavior is 40-50% done.

weeks after the sailing trip was good even if there was the projects and the severe lack of sleep. world cup,project, world cup, project, world cup, project. and after the world cup finals, its projects all the way. tonight i shall have a good slp, then tomorow morning go hit the gym. yea.

and MH, thanks for everything this few weeks, the mental and moral support. dont have to say anything. even a smile and a simple jia you motivated me. haha, im gonna catch up this year for my results thanks to you => thanks MH

2006-06-25T07:23:00.000+08:00

Im back from a 6 day sailing trip, darker, better, happier(surely much happier, thanks to that person) thinner(hopefully, havent weight myself~) and with a "jermen" slang ya? ill talk about that later so let me take a super deep breath and start talking about this trip. In summary i would call this sailing expedition a combination of OBS and sailing. yup, we've climbed rocks(real high ones) trek through untreked forest (got me some nasty cuts everywhere)and then of course lots of sailing. i mean LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS and did i mention LOTS? its very enriching really, we get to learn navigation and steering the boat and guess what, when its ur watch, the captain dont help. so you can imagine sailing in the mindless ocean without seeing lan or knowing if you are going the right direction except using the GPS system and this compass globe. learnt lots about all these, waves, tide, direction, lots!

ok lets cut the chase and go to the story telling

day1.
crap, raining so we were delayed for few hours so end up setting off late. and when we finally set off, EVERYONE got sea sickness, there was lots of puking business going on everywhere ( i puked 5 times in a row and i mean continously) that cool huh? good for me, i became well after the puking while there were still many dead bodies around. we continued sailing through out the day, i cldnt eat anything so end up not eating the whole day. at night, we were split into watches and mine was the last watch. being the usual me, i didnt sleep at all through out. i helped the other watches too and had a chat with one of the crew, a german engineer, funny guy really, brings lots of laughter through out the trip. first day i made friends with 2 guys mainly "chairman mao" min zhe and "6 pointer" Jocius(dunno spell correct not) more fun to come later. ok i go slp now shall talk about the other days on the next FEW entries

2006-06-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me in 2 days time. this years up coming birthday gives new meaning to me or should i say since my 16th birthday onwards, every year i celebrate my birthday with a new condition to life. ok not excatly celebrate. when i was young, i always look forward to my birthdays. i always wanted to tell the world so i can get attention. yup, i loved attention in the past when i was younger but since my 16th birthday, every year is a big jump, like suddenly i have to grow up alot and i started to dislike people celebrating my birhtday or rather i want to play down my own birthday. every year means more reponsibility, more expectations, lesser time to achieve dreams, closer to dying. i am going to be 18 this year but i felt i did little to achieve anything in my life. i realised i always keep looking for achievements one after another. after one is done, do more things. do more things. and some more things. recently, theres this sailing expedition for NYAA gold. joining the sports club, dabbing a little in politics. i would somewhat like to spend my birthday this year in peace though but a promise is a promise friends, so ya........... happy birthday gim kai, time running out, time to do something be somebody.......

2006-06-03T21:37:00.000+08:00

Ladys and gentlemen, lo and behold, im gonna be a grand uncle. oh yea, a grand uncle. can also be know as the brother of your grandfather.image that. jsut found out today, my nephew's wife (who is 20 this year ) is expecting a child AND another cousin of the same extended family gave birth (she is my age by the way) so my family is pretty confusing right now. i was tell me auntie (who by the way is that child's great grand aunt) that she would most likely see her great great grand child if this keep up. i appluad my cousins and nephews effort at answering to the nations call of having children.

serious now, both families arent well to do and they dont even sum up to gross income of 1500 per month. both guys are still in the army leaving their wives at home.

thoughts to keep in mind. dont be an idiot

2006-05-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

WORLD’S WORST CYBER GAMES
Posted on Sunday, November 27, 2005
Topic: We, The Citizens
Now that the World Cyber Games are over, here’s a look at some games they rejected:

Grand Theft Auto: Sesame Street
King Kong: Plays Ping Pong
Need for Speed: Kena Saman
Star Wars: Battle to Scrape As Much Money From Stupid Kids as Possible
Dance Dance Revolution: Community Club Senior Citizen Line Dancing
Resident Evil (HDB edition)
FIFA Nonstop ‘Ole Ole Ole Ole’ Singalong 2006
Final Fantasy VII: The Cute SCGS Chick Who Sits Behind Me in the Bus Everyday That I Don’t Have The Guts to Speak To
Super Mario Mahjong Multiplayer Session
The Sims: Everitt Road
Tony Hawk: HDB Void Deck Handicapped Ramp Skate-o-rama
Pokemon Casino Poker Battle
Barbie: Bulimia in the Bathroom 2005
Extreme NASCAR: Tyre Pumchek on the AYE
Pimply Virgin Who Stays In His Room Whole Day Doing Donno What (Special Edition)
Tetris: Phua Chu Kang edition

2006-05-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

66th entry

Its quite weird you know, life is falling unto place for me somewhat. 2nd in the All malaysian karate open, (karate checked) Committee member of titans alumni (band checked) Maha bodhi alumni just got approved (band checked again) A active class (school checked) smart group members...except for one (4 major projects checked). you aks yourself, whats missing from this list. hmmm.....it seems life is damm good. but being the unsatisfied and greedy me, blardy good friends (unchecked)temper control (unchecked for many years)
Sometime back 2-3 years ago, i once had a very good friend.....once had....haha, weird izzit it, arent good friends suppose to last? yes?,no? if it didnt last then would you still call him/her a good friend? haha i sound like a damm girl..... for those who keep asking me to update, pls back off, i will update as and when i like

2006-05-16T02:09:00.000+08:00

Somewhat forgot i had a blog untill recently then i remembered. well what can i say? how can i compress a month and a half of events into this entry? well i shant. but waht im gonna do is list down the events really

1. SYF outdoor comp (gold) really happy for them happier when i got the gold myself.
2. school reopening. haha when you look forward to seeing pretty gals. its hard to accept when for both years no outstandind ones at all.
3. malaysian tournement- happy with my results got a sliver. a big glory for singapore. beat the malaysians who happen to be top 5 in the world. shall work harder. cause japan is the next stop! bye bye malaysia, ohiyo japan!

2006-03-20T21:59:00.000+08:00

alrite, much have happened from the time i last updated. Life is rather hectic really. there was the band camp back at spf-pyss and also the tournament last sat. lets start with the camp. i wished i could stay but unfortunately my father did not allow.....zzzzzzzzzso bo bian, i crazily went every morning and return every night. well, if you ask me their progress, i can say that they are doing very well, so is the drum major. finally pulling his act together and about time too!! i guess we will know how well they will peform only on the day itself. the 4 days been quite efficient but the sky hasnt been that kind. the days were killing people. the band suffered quite a number of casualty. hmm.....8 people vomited, 1 with nose bleeding. ive been a little toasty too. now i fit the tall, dark handsome category!! (ok maybe not the handsome part but im almost there......)

and then there was the karate tournament. i dont know if god is trying to make a joke or what but here goes. i got a sliver for my weight category but failed to even go pass the first round of the open category. what a joke. my first 2 matched were rather short cause i knocked out both my opponents. i actually dont have the intention of knocking them out but however they just fall themselves. the final i almost knock him out too. i wacked him untill he vomited but i guess he got quite a strong will. hehe BUT..... blardy hell the open category i want to knock him out but i wack and wack and wack and wack he still dont go down. then i almost got knocked out myself when he gave me a cresent kick to my face reuslting in torn lips. bleah. hurts like hell. our shin clash and clash but he still dont go down. super sian.....zzzzzz

next, i was just thinking how do people determine the depth of our blogs? do we have to dicuss world issues and have deep thoughts to show our depth? or the rattlings of our everyday life is actually enough? i personally do not like blogs that do not show maturity speaking of things like love who love who, miss who miss who or people who fake their maturity. HOWEVER its just personal thooughts and people might think im faking mine. SO SO, it all comes down to personal opinion~

2006-03-12T01:56:00.000+08:00

hello, ok today im kinda roasted, admit havent been helping enough in the sun for the band, but it seems things are coming together for me back in the combined band. haha, its been a long while.....zack macework is finally coming together, haha, sure still can improve, and still trying to cope with my super packed holidays, obviously my parents are not happy abt me not spending time at home. thats something i dont understand. i mean, even if i stay at home, i would just play games , but outside i can do more meaningful stuff like helping the band, training karate and catch up with friends. but well, parents being parents, i think they feel like they have control over me if they see me in the house it gives them a sense of "security" haha this i must agree, but again, being their son for so long, i never give them problems about my life at all, just that i spend more time out. the only in the house who does it, what i do always make me the black sheep of the house, when i asked if i could learn piano, my parents gasp as if i asked if i could go kill someone. it sounds ancient to them. karate? to them is tt i have an interest in hurting my family one day. help the sec sch band? seems to them i have too much time to spend and apparently its none of my biz wax anymore. bleh. as much as i say i dont want to care, its just a lie to myself, how can i, after spending 4 wonderful and fruitful year say i dont care?> haha impossible......

2006-03-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

lets see.....now its the holidays suppose to be very free, but how come like got so many things squeeze together? class chalet, karate tournement, 2 cousins wedding,(big events cause our family quite close) yup. made a point to train seriously this 2 months and yup i got my endorsement for the NUS invitational, thought must persuade and persude BUT it was done within 5 mins! and how come all the games i though is nice turn out like shit. just buy this game call Knights of the temple, play awhile got very irritated with the autosave system, turn off liao still will appear, arrghghg, waste money. and then there was the combined band practice. doesnt look good at the rate zack is progressing.....i dont know what to do, it seems that he reached a bottleneck, encouragemnt dont work, scoldings wont work, so what now? i know he lacks the blardy self confiddence when he do his stuff but how to instill confidence? he is the DM already, if he needs motivating then its bad news. headache lar......and finally i watch huo yuan jia today. ya finally after so long. bleh. very nice show. the spirit of martial arts. haha good one. practised abit of piano. and played some games, tommorow got training. Gambate to myself. (sounds weird)

2006-02-24T02:53:00.000+08:00

a billion years ago i updated my blog, and now, a billion years after, im here again. was thinking of updating quite a few times but was kinda lazy. yup thats the extend of my laziness. Haha. lots of things happened since i last updatyed. hmmm lets start with the most recent one. Exams over!!! yay!!!!! after todays paper, we went to eat, and me and wei bin (classmate) were like drunk man, haha expecially me, singing hokkien songs at the top of my voice while walking down a long windy path. talk crap sing crap. i sung something about riding on a white horse haha. sen cia pai bae.hahaha. naturally high, never felt like tt for so long maybe cause exam over already. and then i finallt went the 2nd training of the year few days back. god...my body aches like siao. i shall not ke kiang in training anymore. and people, its official. i am addicted to rome total war. blardy good game even during exam period i also play. im mad. oh valentines? nothing much really, had a buffet with my class singles club. kinda cool, ate like a pig who never eat for a long time. good place, yuki yaki at cine. worth the money for the buffet. and even before that watched jarhead with xiao quan while getting the VCD called crying out from the center of the earth. a touching a nice show too but not my first choice,i wanted tales of the bizzare budden blardy hell search for that whole particular week also cannot find. not online either. bleh. ok i shall update again SOON i promise since i got more time now. haha im talking to myself. realised i dont usually post bad things on my blog or bad events. sometimes its not i dont want to but somethings are better left alone. cause when i type it out it brings back the pain and whatever.

Gim kai signing off

2006-02-08T01:59:00.000+08:00

come to post obviously got thing happen right. so ya lets start with new year. everyone is growing up except me. the only teen still playing with the kids and im actually having fun!!!! oh my god....something is wrong but i cant deny i like kids. this yr is duller in a way. 2 of my young cousins are getting married one 19 the other 22. haha my aunts and friends were asking when my turn and i say wait after NS then say lar. and then there awas CHINGAY. haha it was fun while it lasted. cant believe after months of regular practice, the event is over just like that. its like as if going to people's association is a must do thing every week then. suddenly i feel an empty feeling in my heart like a chunk of it is missing. and i finally realised why i always keep myself occupied with activities untill im so packed.piano, karate, chingay, projects. when things end, i tend to quickly find a replacement to it cause i hate that empty feeling. kinda like when friends and friends were no longer as close anymore. but that......is something that cannot be replaced easily. i was hopping and hoping of finding bosom friends in poly, but i guess not yet. it just never came. im not saying i got no friends there but i just know those wont last. once we change classes, so will our relationship with each other. its always nice to have someone to always hang out with.just hang around. haha. give up lar, as the chinese put it. "yi qie shui yuan" leave it all to fate.

it made me think after an incident that happened few days back. must there be a motive for friends to become good friends? and improve so on up the level? is it possible for the opposite sex to become best friends without involving any possible love relationship? whats happens after the love? many questions. somewhat i though i knew then answer back then, but i guess its time to think again. the next time im on better terms with a female, i should be more careful.

oh the ice queen says she talks in class now, a big change really and she actually inititates some wacky ideas. so unlike her. wah seh, teacher talking you also talk hor. last time like ice mountain like that, want to talk to you like so difficult. now like so lively and bubbly. the change is good and stop saying u wanna change back cause that will never happen. ultimately its the crowd you mix with. unless u telling me you gonna change crowd. *ive came across your old blog =>

2006-01-15T14:36:00.001+08:00

i like this nice jap show, crying out from the center of the earth budden i cant bear to watch. too touching. dont really like tt feeling stuff. but the stroy line is good.

anyway, how do we define if one is mature enough? by age quantity? by the measure of ones intelligence? the depth of his words? how? how do you know you are actually matured enough to do the things you think you can do? are you ready to accept whatever outcome of your actions? i believe we can see a growing trend of "little big people" or "xiao da ren" where kids the age of 13-15 start acting like adults. but are they actually who they act? we never know. can someone tell me what is the correct unit of measurement of maturity?

Gim kai draws his gladius and charged into the deep unknown

2006-01-15T14:36:00.000+08:00

aye was thinking of going to chinatown for a walk before the chinese new year, been a few years since ive been there simply because i hated crowds but i guess this year should be an exception, just really feel like taking a look. should be interesting but i dont think i can get anyone to go with me...haha been playing Rome total war, i realised i can fight wars but cannot govern. would want to get a better computer if i can, a mini-fidge then my room wld already be self substainable!!!!! (except the toliet lar)

Chinatown anyone?

2006-01-11T01:38:00.001+08:00

ahhh peeps, when was the last time i updated?? long long time ago i guess...decided when i feel like it then i continue my life story. anyways, life have been good, first time failed my mid sem test in poly, statistics, haha maths stuff, something i m never good at and never will be! spent my christmas in a cab on the way home, my new year couunting down at vanessa's house then to XQ hse to kill some german facist. now now, resolutions for 2006? im 18!!!! (gonna be) so i want to get my driving license, so well in school, be a better person, help old people across the road, help small people across the road, help pretty people acorss the road. the list goes on....but again when do we actually stick to our resolutions? at least i never. somewhat things dont go your way ya? and well its another year, and i should reflect upon it => . for one made me realise people change quickly or is it just me who is slower then the others? thoughts thoughts, so many thoughts so lazy to type em down.
how do i want my life to be this year? fun nevertheless, but i pray that i will grow up somemore....apparently my thoughts are above my peers but my father still thinks im a mindless child who knows nothing...blah, his comparing me to those part-timers he hired... well, also i want it to be activity filled~ joined up for Chingay and NDP and piano (i wanna be a jazz pianist~) i wanna do well in em especially piano. somehow taking piano lessons have proven again that i have no talent or whatsoever in music., shall try to post more often, and to those that read my blog do tell me what i always never add in my updates, thanks or wat u guys wanna know..(haha who reads ur stupid blog?)

2006-01-11T01:38:00.000+08:00

2005-12-10T02:04:00.000+08:00

in the backgoud music of monoke hime medley i type gimmy's life story part 1.....

Prolouge: a tale of glory, defeat, struggle, happiness, anger, action, triller, a little romance (just a little, really!!) it takes us through sci-fic, medeival, contempory times as the protagonist, gimmy explains his life journey from the day where it all happened.....

*disclamier: lousy english and un-english like words may be used, please read at your own disrection.

it all happened one stormy night......fast forward nine months later in a labour ward......a boy came to earth and his grandfather decided to name him kai, combining with the generation name of gim, his name was Ng Gim Kai, a kid whose life will be made colourful with many expeirences of people he will meet, events he wiil go through and things he will see...

His childhood was a strict one, a natural born left hander, his mother would always force him to use his right and to write, but obviously his mother failed cause gim is still really a lefty. however a tinge of rebelling nature and sturbborness could alreayd be sensed as he grew up aruging with his parents, fighting with his siblings.

He joined Maha bodhi primary school at a age of 7, an insitute which have a very very big effect on his life in his later years. He was a very lazy boy who never did his homework. in the end he was sacked as class monitor at primary 1, then he also developed many habits like heavy school back which still persist today and many more. life was fun untill pri 2....you see at the age of 8, you joined the newly formed maha bodhi school band cause his brother joined too. he did not know that an act of playfulness is going to change his life forver........

2.48am 10/12/05
chapter 2 coming soon...